.my haven:.

a new beginning

2008-01-15T23:42:00.000+11:00

wakakaka xP

2008 marks a new beginning.
08/01/2008 <3

this blog is so dead btw.

wth?

2007-11-20T17:04:00.000+11:00

okay. somethings seriously wrong with blogger?

my post is turning up funny o_O
it like deletes some of the stuff i write and like the spacing is all screwed up.

stuff blogger.

BOO!

2007-11-20T16:44:00.001+11:00

i'm SO bored now that my HSC is oveer.

its been awhile, almost 2 and a half weeks since its been over.

man i've been doing heaps of stuff though, but when i'm at home its so boring.

i guess i could clean my room up, but i just really cant be stuffed.

i should look for a job, but i cant be bothered doing my resume lol.

anyways. the point of this post is to showoff this HugE ice cream tower! it was YUMMEH! hehe. my youth group went to eat it and it was relatively cheap! we only had to pay 5bucks each and there was 9 ppls eating it hehe.

heres the icecream before we started digging in

[i swear its NOT photoshopped!]

another picture of it =D

almost finished!

GROSS! they mixed up whats left of the icecream and some daredevils drank it through straws!

it was disgusting LOL!

so..yeah. thats my life lol.

anyways, i'm going to stop jabbering now. blog again another time =]

miss you guys in singapore <3

miss my hun <3

-cUi-

guess its been awhile..

2007-10-16T20:26:00.000+10:00

whoooop- wow, i haven't blogged in what..ten thousand years?

well, guess what?! my A-level equivalent exams or HSC is in hmm..how many was it again? oh yea 3 days =D

i'm i prepared? all i can say is no.
i'm i freaking out? no too!

its funny i guess..i've been spending the last few days watching many many youtube videos.
man...i studied more 2 years ago.

anyways, english is up on friday. halfway through rewriting my essay now. cant seem to find any suitable stimulus booklet texts to fit with my 3 issues.

well back to essaying.

<33 my honey

2007-07-04T03:40:00.000+10:00

cutecute girl-cat thingy i found =]

its animated btw, if it doesn't show up animated, then try clicking on it.

if it still doesn't work, then right click, save picture and open it up in a webpage..pretty sure it'll work that way =]

2007-06-13T21:35:00.000+10:00

oh oh, and happy seventeenth birthday to susan!!

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to suuuuusan~
happy birthday to YOU!!

hehe, just wait another year and we can go drinking together xP

小宇是谁！？

2007-06-13T21:28:00.000+10:00

rawr!
finished watching 热情仲夏today!! so nice =) romantic ending..aw..i'll miss it, so 舍不得.

this mysterious 小宇 guy sings like 3 songs in the show and i really like all of them!
but i have no idea who he is =(
i google his name and all i find are like free online listening to his songs ><

so sad!! and its getting me very frustrated ><
i wanna know who he is!!!!

anyways, on a lighter note, everyone watch 换换爱/love exchange!
it has rainie yang and kingone and mike in it, all from 恶魔在身边/Devil Beside You.
its really funny and nice =D

oh wells, back to working now. got a maths assessment tomorrow and i haven't studied. mwahaha.

-cUi-

2007-04-17T16:40:00.000+10:00

pretty golden girl thingy that gina sent me =D

kind of evokes a sad feeling though cause she disappears in the end, like its some sort of memory.

oh well..it's pretty and it moves, good enough!

你要什么就说 -- 小宇

2007-04-16T23:18:00.000+10:00

a funny song from 热情仲夏, nice and funny show =D

烦恼　有你生活太吵　

没你　却会无聊　

所以　我唱什么听好

你说要我喜欢你　抱歉我不行　因为我有眼睛

OH 你好烦　长的很奇怪　再跟着我就报警

仰慕我的人特别多　罗嗦的你却包容我的沉默

OH 没理由　跳跃的感受　在靠近左边的胸口

OH 转过头　有点失落　

你怎么消失在巷口突然搞懂　

我的生活　早习惯你在左右

你要什么就说　少了你一秒像一分钟现在会不会来不及　

你却还在原地等着我　比谁都坚定　

你要什么就说因为我一定尽我全力希望你会觉得满意　

不满意我改进我可以　把未来变成童话　送给你

我想你应该不介意　我来做决定　

跟着我的脚印

OH 太崇拜　自己的脑袋　乖乖的站在我身后

OH 广场上　牵着你走　

放心把一切交给我确定什么　

开始闪烁　在我和你的眼中

你要什么就说　极光流星或Tiffany

我想带你一起旅行　哪里都没关系你就是有趣的风景　

你要什么都说因为我一定尽我全力希望你会觉得满意　

不满意我改进我可以　把童话变成日记　送给你

>=O

2007-04-16T23:06:00.000+10:00

>=O

angry. D=
angrier. D=<
angriest. O=<

rawr! my evil boyfriend is not home yet.

rawr! i shall have to kick his butt tomorrow.

i'm bored waiting for him >=O
two hours now, two WHOLE hours.

RAWR!

gah!!

2007-03-15T17:12:00.000+11:00

too much work..going to die ><

assessments just ended and i did terrible in everything.

2 weeks of assessment - rest/study one week - mid-year exams =S

talk about not having enough time..zzz. i haven't even started studying for my exams yet =.=

monday-

2006-11-13T20:41:00.000+11:00

Hey!
monday~
i hate mondays to tell you the truth. but now i doubt its really that bad. at least out of 5 weekdays, monday and friday are the only days when i don't have to get up early for extension maths. + today was cool, cause i had a free last period so i could go out and get lunch with susan. seee...mondays aren't that bad anymore.

just that perhaps i'm stuck with this silly english essay that i dono how to write.

"Poetry has a use by date"

write referring to Yeats' poems. and only 2 of them, crap, but theres like 6 of them to choose from. lol. anyways...its not like its due tml. only due on 1st of december, i got ages to work on it =]

except that i got another ton of homework to do, including studying for 3 maths tests, ext english test, adv eng test, blahblahblah.

oh well.

-cUi-
pinkstarforyoutoday

so...

2006-11-10T20:32:00.000+11:00

Heys!

its been pretty long since i last blogged..sorry xD
just couldn't be bothered to blog..since theres nothing particularly interesting anyways.

if anyones interested, i'll be back in singapore on the 16 of dec at 2.20pm [sg time i think]. and i'll be leaving on the 26 of dec..not sure what time though, but yea. come to airport to pick me up okay =]

theres nothing much to talk about. so...i'll blog when something interesting crops up ^^

-cUi-

lalala~

2006-09-24T21:46:00.000+10:00

I finished my exams!! ^^

next term i'm gonna be in year 12. HSC year. hehe, scary scary. everything's gonna count towards my future now. ><

yup, but anyways exams are over ^^ got 3 weeks to relax.

tomorrow we're going to luna park for crossroads. weee. we've got unlimited free rides..but we have to wear school uniform xD

hehs. yea. waiting for the cookies to bake. bored.

-cUi-
i love you baobei~

s o r r y

2006-09-14T19:59:00.001+10:00

i'm sorry baby.

i know i'm being selfish, but all i want is to spend time with you. perhaps, i guess, that's just too much to ask for.

sorry for taking our relationship for granted.

but i want you to know i still love you no matter what (:

2006-09-10T17:41:00.000+10:00

I'M SAD

AND ANNOYED

AND DISAPPOINTED

BECAUSE OF YOU

i hate english!!

2006-08-01T22:29:00.000+10:00

Heys.

i wanna drop english ><"
theres soooooo much work its driving me insane. and the worst thing is that the more work i do the worse my english becomes and i start crapping and my marks start dropping and everything is just a mess =S

yea anyways. theres so many essays to write its no fun. and its all about the same topic, identity for extension and integrity for advanced =.= booooooring.

besides that, i have countdown 6 weeks to my exams =/ and 8 weeks to year 12 >< bummer.

-cUi-

RAWR

2006-07-17T22:49:00.000+10:00

WARNING: DO NOT EVER ATTEMPT TO SWEEP STYROFOAM

=.=
just finished my physics project. yea, and i put my circuit on styrofoam so i was cutting the styrofoam to make it fit into this carboard box. the whole floor was filled with bits and pieces of styrofoam. yea you can guess what happened next. i tried to sweep it..it took me at least 15 minutes to sweep it. i didn't wanna use the vacumn cause its kinda late and my parents are sleeping. meh, every small movement i make with the broom the styrofoam pieces go flying away. ><

anyways. last day of holiday. i'm doomed. i've hardly touched my english. i've got 5 more essays to finish before wednesday + 4 more english advance questions to do. well. i shall go to bed now cause i'm reaaaaally not feeling well. and i shall wake up at 3am [4 hours from now] and do english till i go crazy ^^
niteynite~

-cUi-

weeeee~

2006-07-08T23:06:00.000+10:00

Heys.
yes boonie. praise the lord. hahas =P

anyways. the hillsong conference is over...awwww.
but its gonna be a whole new beginning of my life =D
yup. God has BIG plans for me ^^

well..since i'm already here blogging, i'm going to do some advertisment for compassion.

sponser a compassion child today!
go to www.compassion.com
help poor children, you will not only help them get food to eat, you will also help them receive education and christian teachings. help them lead a better life and make a difference in this world.

get together with a group of friends and sponser a child, just one. even if it seems like its not much of a difference, it is a HUGE difference in this child's life. i'm sure everyone has compassion, this is the best time and best way to show it =D

yupyups. imma go to sleep now. peace out people ^^

-cUi-

umm

2006-07-03T10:35:00.000+10:00

Heys.

Oh wells. i guess things are on a better note now than they were yesterday and the day before.

well, i'm going to the hillsong conference for the next 4 days to learn more about God. yea..weird how life has taken me from God, away from Him, to Him, away from Him and now back again. I'm not going to deny it, i watched the Da Vinci Code and i was swayed by the story. But God let me find this book in my shelf just now. its called The Case for Faith. i have no idea what its doing in my house, but perhaps its a sign from God, perhaps i wouldn't have to worry so much about my faith in God and christianity anymore after i've finished with the book.

yup. anyways. i'm going off to do stuff now. you guys should go off and do stuff too. byebye ^^

-cUi-

=(

2006-06-30T22:23:00.000+10:00

i had an arguement with my baobei.

meh.

just when i thought life was getting better everything starts to go wrong again.

sigh. i wonder if everyone has problems like this too.

-cUi-
=(

yay! last day of term!

2006-06-30T16:07:00.000+10:00

Heys.

Hmm..lemme guess yuntong, you read the blogs of boring people, ie: me. nah..i'll ask shuxian when i get the chance to. shuxian tell me! xD

yea anyways. its the last day of term 2 today. one more term and i'm in yr 12..eek scary. today first period was physics and we had this baaaaaad sub. yea but she let us go to the art room for a teaparty coz we were invited by dasuel ^^
then second period we had an english assessment. hahas fun. yea but its a listening thing and we had the questions before the test. so the whole class found the audio recording and did the questions before. so all i had to do was memorise my answers xD
yup..third period i had a free so i went with susan and dasuel to mando to eat. then we bummed around and had a girl talk xD hehes.
fourth period was the best! =D we had maths and after one question simon randomly said he felt like a hot chocolate so he brought the 9 ppl in the class out for hot chocolate; and he paid for it! yup, best maths lesson ever =D

so anyways. its finally the end of the term ^^ can't wait for hillsong conference next week =]

-cUi-

tired tired tired tired tired

2006-06-26T18:53:00.000+10:00

Heys.
I'm tired, if you haven't noticed yet. As usual, too many things too little time. i'm bumming around too much, not doing things i ought to be doing ie: homework xD

yea anyways. had a maths test today. the functions was weird =X
and i've got a chemistry test tml. and an english test on friday. yay fun.

oh well. anyways, last few days was the guys and dolls musical production at school. it was pretty cool except the last night's band was relly dodgy. but the middle 2 nights were pretty good ^^
even though i did umm...literally nothing, i'm still proud to be part of the sound and lighting crew =D hehes, we get to watch the show free 4 times.

well..i better go study my chem now. or i'll die tml..yea..and i only have 4 lives left [hehe, long story]. alrighty, blog another time then.

-cUi-

too many things to do too little time.

2006-06-10T23:38:00.000+10:00

Heys.
I just realised that i have heaps of things to do this week T-T

1. ALL 15 othello questions for english
2. bio homework due on tuesday
3. LOTS of packing to do
4. guys and dolls rehearsals on monday all day
5. dvds to watch
6. HEAPS of maths exercises to catch up on

plus i've got 5 assessments coming up in 2 weeks --- chem, physics, english, maths 2U and maths ext. man...i'm gonna be so dead by the end of the term. PLUS i'm moving in like 6 days, thus dot point number 3. meh, too many things to do too little time. anyways, i've changed my web counter...so now it has restarted from 0 again T-T....

-cUi-
p.s. i'm not doing the quiz..sorry YT xD i read the questions in your blog so its gonna be unfair if i do it xD hehes..its so dodgy though..the quiz o_o hahas

life is a journey

2006-06-06T23:30:00.000+10:00

Life is a Journey

Birth is a beginning
and death a destination
And life is a journey:
From childhood to maturity
and youth to age;
From innocence to awareness
and ignorance to knowing;
From foolishness to desecration
and then perhaps to wisdom.
From weakness to strength or
from strength to weakness
and often back again;
From health to sickness
and we pray to health again.
From offense to forgiveness
from loneliness to love
from joy to gratitude
from pain to compassion
from grief to understanding
from fear to faith.
From defeat to defeat to defeat
until looking backwards or ahead
We see that victory lies not
at some high point along the way
but in having made the journey
step by step
a sacred pilgrimage.
Birth is a beginning
and death a destination
And life is a journey;
A sacred journey to life everlasting.

Today, i went for the library HSC talk on my next year english theme : Journey.
The speaker showed us this poem and i think its really nice =D

yup, anyways, after school today we went to buy cake for my yesterday birthday. [yesterday we were gonna buy cake but we got pizza instead xD]

mango mousse cake!

we didn't have a knife so we just decided to use spoons to dig in!

this is what the end result was! xD

yup..anyways..ended up leaving the rest of the cake at jasons house =.=
well..it was yummy =D
yea..but today was kinna depressing cause it was raining and raining and raining and its still raining =.= oh well.

-cUi-

my bday! =)

2006-06-05T17:24:00.000+10:00

Heys!
happy birthday to me, i'm a hundred and three, i look like a monkey and smell like one too! xD

nah..:
happy birthday to me, i'm seventeen, i look like a human and smell like one too (=

to tell you the truth i never really wanted anything for my birthday, i'm doing well in my studies, i have great friends, i have a brilliant love life and a fantastic family. the only thing i could complain about was possibly my lack of funds to buy all the presents for june birthday friends. but God, being the wonderful God that he is let me find the hongbao that i hid for CNY and guess how much i found.....? 200 bucks! plus the 100 that my mom gave me for my bday and the 200 that i got as allowance this month, i got 500 to spend on birthday presents now =D

Today was great! except for the rain which wouldn't stop...and its still raining now. i had to walk to school in the rain this morning ><" but at least i got to miss first period coz i had a free. then i had a surprise chem quiz...but i did my chem homework yesterday and i got all correct xD english was alright..and bio was as bio-ish as usual, just that mercer got mad at the class and scolded us for being noisy =.=

oh well..next theres vee's + vicky's bday on the 8th, my bros on the 10th, susan's on the 13th and ruth's on the 15th. 5 presents to buy tml o_o
anyways. thanks for everyone who wished my happy birthday and for the 3 presents that i got [excluding my moms] ><" ...3 presents ><" hahas..nevermind, i shall not be materialistic this time.

i feel old. before you know it i'll be 18..thats the legal adult age o_o i can go clubbing xD lol..not that i will o_o anyways...everyone...treasure your time right now before you turn into an obasang!!!
LOL

-cUi-

new skin!

2006-06-04T00:42:00.000+10:00

Hey!
After about 1hour 45minutes of fiddling around with html, i finally got my new blogskin up!

zzz. the encoding thing wouldn't work at first and i started to get reeeeeeelly pissed. then i was googling it and some site said to put a slash [/] behind the utf-8 so i did...and...tadaaa. =.= i spent 15 minutes cause of a stupid slash.

yup, anyways. this new blogskin shall represent the start of my new life. i've found a new reason to live and therefore i shall no longer be pink anymore, i will be yellow now xD not funny =.=

yea, so..comment about it by tagging alright! i spent almost 2 hours on it..so you guys better not say anything bad! *evil look*

-cUi-
baobei thanks for the help (=

me + my baobei

2006-06-02T20:49:00.000+10:00

Heys.

Alright! i got his permission. well this picture is already on my display pic on msn, but for someone like estella who never comes online xD i'll post it here too!

=/ just finished watching pita-ten. its soooo soooo soooo different from the manga o_o but i reckon the ending for the manga is sooo sooo sooo much sadder. at least the anime has a happy ending..even though the second last episode and the first bit of the first episode it sooooo sad T-T

yea. so now i'm feeling upset cause the anime is soooo sad =/
oh well. at least i finally finished watching it.

-cUi-

happyhappybirthday!

2006-06-01T19:49:00.000+10:00

Heys.
First of all lemme say happy birthday to U~! =D ure old....o_o xD nah jkjks.

pretty bad day today, but i guess it was still good cause of U =]
the bank didn't transfer money into my account and i had to get my mom to come to the station to give me money ><"
then duncombe wuldn't give me a long-term uniform pass cause he said it was inappropriate ><"
then then...i got really bus sick and queasy during the movie and even more queasy during the bus ride home. still feeling abit sick now ><"

oh well. but U made my day seem much better than it is =] thankyou!
yup, anyways, hope you like my present (=

-cUi-
i love you baby! [can i call you that? feels so inappropriate coz ure older than me xD]

for the girls (and guys).

2006-05-28T19:55:00.000+10:00

Heys.

I snitched this off armas' space =) This is for the girls who have dropped tears and suffered because of guys. doubt you guys would wanna bother reading this, but please read the last bit at least ^^ This is really long, but its really meaningful..so if you have the time please read it!

This rant was written because a nice girl finally snapped. This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong.

This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times.

This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood.

This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention.

This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and f*** up the guys in their lives without saying a word.

This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds."

This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on.

For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced.

This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed.

This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt.

This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mum, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship.

This is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with.

This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down.

This is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.

This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup.

This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had.

This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep.

This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy.

This is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear.

This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted.

This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made.

Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mindgames, that girls love to keep them hanging.

Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth?

And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing. We might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the whorey girl who welcomes those advances.

You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend, but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express.

Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congratulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?).

This is so true!! read through the whole thing if you have the time, cause you'll probably realise that many of those points listed refers to you. i can pick up at least 10-20 points that is me! xD anyways, takkaire everyone, and don't ever let a guy get to your head unless they're worth it (most of the time they're not =P).

-cUi-

falling in love.

2006-05-22T20:10:00.000+10:00

Heys.
Got all my exam results back already. Bio and maths 2U were good. english was okayokay. chem wasn't that bad, but physics was pretty bad. ecos too, even though i got an okay mark. but anyways, glad i'm dropping economics..finally!

yup. it was raining a few minutes ago, pity it stopped raining. i shulda went to sleep before the rain stopped..bummer. =/ oh well. i feel so dead..spent the whole day out yesterday and had to stay up till 1 and wake up at 6 to finish my work. tsk..i need major help in prioritising.

anyways. just wanna say, sorry for making you pay for my dinner yesterday ><"
but thankyou! (=

-cUi-
*hugs* i love you! (=

12 signs of falling in love.

2006-05-15T15:57:00.000+10:00

12. You'll read his/her IMS over and over again...
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her...
9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and faster...
8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason.
7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around you...you can only see that person...
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs.
5. He/She becomes all you think about.
4. You'll get high just by their smell...
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them..
2. You'll do anything for him/her...
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.

(= i hope you felt the same as i did when i read this ^^

-cUi-

hmm.

2006-05-14T16:21:00.000+10:00

Heys.
Exams are over. But i think i did pretty crap in this times exam. anyways, i have another 5 more assignments to do due on wed for eng =.=

Hahahas, i'm bored out of my mind. Playing some Lord of the Flies educational game xD funny. Todays mother's day and we had a performance kinna thing in church. LOL i was doing the singing and i had to start off, naturally i screwed it up.

Oh wells. at least my exams are over =D good luck to everyone who hasn't had their mid-years yet =)

-cUi-

bummer.

2006-05-08T17:59:00.001+10:00

Heys.
Bummer, i wanted to post lyrics of ni he wo on here. But i don't think it lets me post chinese =.= oh wells.

today's chem was alright. abit harder than i thought it would be but i guess its alright. i've got physics and ext maths tml >< killer day. bleh. 4 down 4 more to go.

-cUi-

foolishgurl.

2006-05-06T23:08:00.000+10:00

Heys.
whose fool i'm i? i'm nobody's fool xD i love that song.

I dono, i guess i've never relly thought about it. depends on what you define as fool.

One who is deficient in judgment, sense, or understanding.
---dictionary.com

I guess i'm a fool for life, in both sense of course (= [i made a pun! xD ..not funny..=.=] I lack judgement, sense and understanding in what life is, and what life should be. But i guess i'm the biggest fool when it comes to trusting people. how do you know who to trust and who not to? life can be so unbelievably cruel at times, don't you think? but i've learnt that its not too smart to trust every other person that comes into your life.

so..i guess you can't blame me for worrying all the time. I dono if i should trust this person or whether i should trust that person. I dono if i'm trusting the right people or whether i'm not trusting the people i should trust. sighs. life is so complicated.

oh. anyways, i've got 3 exams done, 5 more to go.

-cUi-

p.s i'm liking you more and more everyday and i'm so close to loving you..so don't ever let go of my hand (=

btw.

2006-05-05T23:37:00.000+10:00

btw, deleted some posts. no point leaving them lying around.

bleh.

2006-05-05T23:27:00.000+10:00

Heys.
Feeling kinna depressed now. Dono why. I feel as if everything i have right now is a dream. I feel as if i'm living in a dream. I need someone to slap me back to reality.

I was thinking today, amazed at how much I've changed; and at how much other people have changed. Just feels as if nothings real anymore. It feels like I have this thick fog around my mind and i'm just all fuddled up, lost in my own little world. I guess i just need more sleep.

But..i dono, somehow i miss the good old times. Not that i don't like my life now. But it just feels so different. Like it's changed so much..its scary. sigh. Feels as if i dono whats going on anymore, feels so lost.

will you guide me out of this maze?

-cUi-

still studying.

2006-05-04T22:09:00.000+10:00

Heys.
2 exams down, 6 more to go =D
weeee~

I've got 2U maths tomorrow. Then chem, physics, extension maths. extension english, economics. Hahas, how fun. I'm not stressing as much as i should, and i've already screwed up my advanced english paper.

Aiya. Can't wait for exams to be over =.=

-cUi-

hehes.

2006-04-28T20:23:00.000+10:00

Heys.

I got hit by the bball 3 times today. My head hurts now =.=
yea, anyways. i'm full bored now, cause someones banned from the computer and i cant talk to him T_T

oh wells. it's 4 days left to the exams, and i haven't even started studying my english yet =/ and i haven't finished my maths =/

i shall stay at home and mug tomorrow =)

-cUi-

*EDIT*
i threw away some old posts yesterday xD i guess theres no point leaving them around anymore. and as YOU said, it might hurt people..so, yea.

wahahas.

2006-04-07T18:39:00.000+10:00

Hey.

How long have i not blogged! Not much happened anyways. Hahas, you'd think that alot of things would have happened in the last..what..2-3 months? But nope, life is as boring as ever ['cept for the fact that I think I **** *******, wahahas, not telling].

Yup, anyways, i went through my old blog just now, www.foolishgurl.blogdrive.com. So nostalgic. Reminded me of how painful love can be, LOL. Anyways...its good to reread those old times, just shows how much i've matured over the past year.

Life's pretty boring now, 'cept for the fact that I **** ******* [LOL], theres nothing much to be excited about. Hahas, looking for ???? [mo ri zhi lian] on baidu and i found a version with 2 guys K-ing xD. Funny. Computer seems to be extra laggish today..no idea why.

I got 4 more english essays to write and a chemistry assignment to do. Oh..yea, i'm gonna watch ice age 2 tomorrow! YAY~ yup..so i better go do my work, while waiting for someone to come online to talk. Nah, noone in particular, just someone i haven't talked to in FOUR months xD awwwe, i miss my friends in Singapore =]

-cUi-

homework.homework.homework

2006-02-25T22:50:00.000+11:00

Heys.

The homework stress is killing me. Bleh, i got an english assignment due on monday, and a chem one and alot of maths homework.

Haish, homework sucks.

-cUi-

nostalgic

2006-02-18T01:09:00.000+11:00

wow, pretty talkative today.

Just feel horribly nostalgic right now. Suddenly feel like curling up in a corner and crying my heart out. I guess this is just a phase that everyone has to go through. Somehow i feel not-here not-there. Like i don't belong anywhere. As if i don't have a place to call my home. My old friends aren't the same anymore, moving on just as i've moved on now. I cannot convince myself that everything will remain the same when i go back to Singapore. Cause nothing will be the same anymore. Hardly anything is the same now, what more 7 years later. Feels as if this is all a terrible nightmare. Would someone help wake me up?

It's not as easy as it looks, trying to mask feelings under a vulnerably strong face.

Cao Cao~!!

2006-02-18T00:31:00.001+11:00

omgomg!

cao cao comes out today..well, kinda yesterday. But omgomg! xD
I want it SO bad T-T ............ ............... ..............

matchstick

2006-02-18T00:00:00.000+11:00

Hey!
Wow, i'm finally blogging again, after about 3 weeks of back-to-school-torture. Oh wells, anyways, today i went to the library and borrowed this manga called One by Lee Vin. About this boy genius whos going to be the next korean superstar. But i'm only up to book 2 so i don't really know what happens in the end.

Heres lyrics to one of the "songs" composed by the boy genius:

Matchstick

I pretended to be happy,

but it was a lie.

I wanted to be an angel,

but it was a lie.

I didn't mean to deceive,

but people call me a fake.

I laid down my round head,

and thin white body.

Several of the round-headed

me's were lying down

head-to-head inside a box.

One of the several 'me's

was pulled out.

The round head was hammered.

Fire broke out. Hot.

I'm going to die. Hot.

I'm burning out. Hot.

Stop bouncing. Why bounce?

Why bounce and die?

Even if you stop bouncing,

and lie down straight in a row,

Someday your heads will crack

and die in flames.

Stop bouncing. Why bounce?

Your round head will catch fire

and be burned to death someday.

Stay in a square box

as if you're dead.

Your long and white body.

You're a matchstick.

Keep living in your matchbox. Stop bouncing. You bounce, you die.

------One [book 2] by Lee Vin

The translations are abit dodgy cause its translated from korean to english by a company called tokyopop. LOL. Anyways, other than the bouncing part, i really like the starting, at least up till the fake part. But i couldn't possibly just put the first 3 verses and leave out the rest.

Yupyup, that's all for today. Dono when i'll decide to blog again..probably when i have less homework to do =.=

-cUi-

australia day (=

2006-01-27T01:48:00.000+11:00

Heys.
Today is, or rather was considering its after 12, Australia Day! Hahas, went to see fireworks for the first time in my life. Well, first time i've seen it so close. Too bad the pics are on the other com and my dad deleted all the pics from the camera, so i cant post any here now.

But anyways, today's frenny's birthday too =D
It's funny how shes almost 4 months older than me but SO much more immature xD
jkjks lar.

Schools gonna start soon, next wed..i kinda dont want it to start, but i kinda want it to start. lol.

-cUi-

nightmarish

2006-01-17T18:41:00.002+11:00

heys.

Haven't blogged in ages =/ Well, i'm back in sydney already..for 1 week. Time really flies. Spent the past few days mapling as usual. But today i'm organising my zen vision:m, total nightmare ><

If i knew it was gonna be this hard i wouldn't have just blind-copied all the songs from my micro to my vision =( gawd.
oh well, at least it gives me something to do for the whole of tonight ><>

Anyways, i've decided to skip one week of school in december and return to singapore a week early. But i'm only gonna stay for 1 1/2 weeks this time cause i still have to go to london after, to visit my sister.

Bleh, back to my reorganising.

-cUi-

back to blogging.

2005-12-15T17:00:00.000+11:00

Heys.
Haven't blogged for ages, guess i was too caught up with playing maple and everything.

Yup, anyway, theres one week more before i go back to singapore, yea..7 days! Can't wait to get home and sink my teeth into a good plate of char kway tiao. Last friday got my school cert results back, came second in school, nat came first xD. my english result sucked real bad, got a band 5, 84 only. But geog was good, came top with 92..not bad ehs. Yea, i'm parents are getting me an ipod for my results xD.

Went to the beach on wednesday, we were gonna go to bondi but went to manly instead coz of the racial riots. Had real fun =D, i'll miss nat and denise when they leave the school next yr =(

i was taking the picture so no me in it =/

half-buried emily

denise's mermaid sand tail xD

beach volleyball =D

Got a little bit of tan, it was really fun ^^

-cUi-

pissed off.

2005-12-02T23:15:00.000+11:00

heys.
Theres.....nevermind. I don't really wanna bring it up anymore.

-cUi-
xoxo

quiz + some random stuff

2005-11-27T19:44:00.000+11:00

Heys.
YT got me stucked with some quiz. Yea saw it before while blog surfing, never thought i would end up doing it one day, but i guess i'm bored enough to.

Post 5 random facts about yourself and..nevermind about the latter part, can't be bothered to do it. XD

1] I used to like drinking coffee until one day at some chess competition i drank some and got really sick while on the car back home.

2] Whenever i pass a shop selling cushions i ALWAYS look [hardly every stopping XD]

3] I hate insects but i can't bear to kill ants.

4] When in singapore chewing gum was a luxury and i always had it when i had the chance, but now i realised i haven't even touched gum for the pass 6 months.

5] oookay, this is getting hard, can't think of anything. I often get jealous of my bro for having so many friends, even if most of his friends are erm..not to my liking anyway.

There we go, 5 random facts about me. LOL, heres another random thing.

hehs, i love the shoes i wore to the formal. Not like anyone ever notices the shoes anyway, but somehow they're just so captivating. Then again, maybe because they're my first heels. Yea, but heres my first and last photo of them before i pack it off and send it to my sister for her pre-xmas/new yr party.

Thats all for today's random post =D

-cUi-
xoxo

boredom reigns supreme

2005-11-26T16:49:00.000+11:00

Heys.
I've been bumming around. Realised how many xmas cards i had to write, LOL.

Yea, its boiling now, no wind. To think that it was raining just a few hours ago. Playing too much maple recently..and i thought i was a mapleholic, realised that friends back home were like lvl 40s, 50s =X

Anyways..heres a pic from the formal, as requested from yuanting =P

only a few guys..hrm, lemme try to get another one.

Can't be bothered to look through ALL the photos laura has on her msnspace. Yea, LOL..pity the guys aren't THAT cute though. Hahas, okay, enough of crapping, nothing much to say. Learning the guitar, promised emz to play in her band for the performance on wed. Playing lost without you by delta goodrem. Guo ran very hard to learn last minute.

-cUi-
xoxo

formal =D

2005-11-22T21:53:00.001+11:00

Helloooos
The formal was yesterday, it was sooo fun. Too much dancing and photos though.

Got to emz house at 3.00 to get ready, couldn't figure out what to do with my hair, messed around for about 1 hr then decided to leave it out. Yea, we got there too early, at 6 and people only started coming at 6.30.

It was like, photos, eating, photos, eating, dancing, the end. Yea, pretty boring for someone like me who don't like dancing and didn't know half the people there. There were loads of ex-CHS students, so didn't know heaps of people. Sad but true. I guess the night wasn't that bad, at least the food was nice XD.

Tomorrow is term music night, dono if i should go. Anyways, cant wait to go back, 30 days more to go.

-cUi-

whee~~

2005-11-18T22:49:00.000+11:00

*grins*
Today was a cool day, had soSOso much fun ^^

Woke up late at 10.30 cause i slept at 2 something the night before reading. Then went on maple, and became lvl 28, sold a scroll for 1 mill..now i'm rich =D After that me and my bro went to some youth meeting. Bballed with my slippers and went to ruth/jason/angela's house to bao jiao zi. It was pretty cool, first time i did that. I kinda planned to get home by 7.30 by ended up staying to watch princess mononoke which lasted till 10.15. Hehs, anyways my parents don't really bother with us, they trust us pretty much, alot of independence.

Hahas, i also like today cause its the last day of O-lvls!!! =D Anyways thats the end of sufferings till the results come out. Not in a very good mood now though, afraid that i might have gotten ruth/jason/angela into trouble by staying so late. Yea, i'll just ask to make sure another day.

The formal is in 3 days. Stupid thingo, it falls on the same day as the Australian Idol finale. -grrrr- the place better have a teevee. Uh huh..my bro is watching some violent movie now, lotsa blood all over the place. I think i'll go off and read more of my book, LOL, murder-mystery book.

-cUi-

sometimes my mind is so jumbled

2005-11-15T23:53:00.000+11:00

Gah!!
Okay, i'm kinda pissed right now, pms-ing when i shouldn't. Today was a good day until something just sparked it off and turned my whole day the other way round. Anyways, i won't go into that.

Today i signed out of school [finally]. Then i went out with the 'library' gang to the city for a gathering. I went K with some people and it was fun, only that we only got to sing 2 hrs. After that we met up with more people and took sticker-photos. =X Okay, that bit was abit screwed up cause emily didn't wanna take any and..nvm, it was just screwed up. Then we had dinner at some korean restaurant, had something like "mixed rice and veggies". We bummed around at galaxy and played some games then headed home. Played maple, almost died while trying to explain pq to jason o.O, not an experience i wanna experience again.

So stupid. When i left home it was full shining bright and hot, by the time i reached central it was still okay. Then the next thing i knew the dum temperature dropped from 26 to 16. wth, it was raining and so windy, and i was wearing a skirt. Not funny, i almost died freezing, good thing i had my jacket with me.

Anyways, not in a very good mood right now, feel like i'm gonna scream at someone any second. Good thing everyones sleeping already. Bleh, i better go to bed too. I can have a good sleep, then i wouldn't feel so -grrrr- anymore. goodnites.

-cUi-

crazee-

2005-11-14T22:29:00.000+11:00

okays.
going crazee trying to make my own blog template. Never realised it was so hard =X. Oh wells, Lee got kicked out in Aussie idol ='( *sobs*. At least Kate didn't get kicked out ^^ ohhh...i so wanna go to the final. It's gonna be 2 days before the formal, but i have no money to buy tickets *sobs somemore*. Hahas, just jokings, it'll be nice to go though.

My bro bought an outdated version of counterstrike and he cant play without paying for some thingo online. Silly him. Anyways, i'm going K tml! For like 4 hours! Happy! It better not cost me too much. I'm leaving school tomorrow, giving a note in the morning then ditching school until next year. Today school was SO boring, there were only 20 odd people and 2 classes. There were like 8 people in my class, the supposedly "smart" class [according to my maths teacher]. Yea, maths kinda sucked today, i had 2 full periods of maths, thats 2 1/2 hrs. We did boring polynomials and the teacher drove me insane. Then we had science, relativity thingo, and d&t, drew some stuff. Yea, i'm signing out tomorrow, so good riddance ^^

p.s. Sorry if the colour is abit hard to see =X. Ohh..and VEE!!! u stuffed up my taggy i had to repaste the code, hahahahahas. See, spamming is baaaad.

-cUi-

new blogskin!! [at last]

2005-11-13T00:35:00.000+11:00

Heys.
Finally got a new blogskin, the old one was starting to come up with lotsa problems. This one is a little too pinkish though =X. Anyways, i still have to put up the music list thingo, so bear with me a while until i fix it up properly. In the meantime, feel free to post any comments on my........NEW tagboard =D

Next year chatti high is putting up a musical and i'm doing props ^^. I was the first to volunteer to do props so i think they kinda put me as assistant manager, not what i really want, but anywhos. Theres a meeting with the director tomorrow at 1 pm, i better not oversleep ><

It's getting kinda late here, 12.40 am already. Looking forward to next month..i'll be able to go back soon, happyhappy.

-cUi-

last day of sch~!! [well for most ppl]

2005-11-11T17:29:00.000+11:00

heeeeeys.
Today is the last day of school for year 10 people. Most of the level signed out today, theres only like 15 people coming back next week, including me. LOL, i'll see what we're gonna do, if it gets boring i'll just leave. Actually i don't mind going back to school, just that i don't wanna wake up at 7.30 every morning. I'm not a morning person!!

Anyways, there were 4 people in science last period today. How fun..we talked about astronomy. Emily and Nat ditched me to go westfield with everyone else. I met up with them after school and ended up going window shopping with laura and nat. Hahas, forgot my brother didn't have keys and he waited for me for 1 1/2 hrs, -nananeepoopoo-.

Eating cheeeeseburger now, only had an apple for the whole day. So hungry..i'm supposed to be on the stupid apple diet to cut 4 kg off, and i'm eating a cheeseburger. Hahas, i guess i'll just go and sit in a corner and reflect on my behaviour =X .
btw, i have NO idea what happened to my tagboard, i'll try get it fixed asap ^^

-cUi-

exams finished~!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-08T16:33:00.000+11:00

-punches fist into air-
My exams are done!!!! No more torture for the next 6 months =D

Anyways, they were really easy, not just for me, for everyone. So i'm just glad i didn't cram that much. hehs. lol, a huge buzzing fly just flew in. Right now i got a whole list of things to satisfy my free-time with. Theres like 10 more days left for u guys back home so cheng xia qu okay!

I guess i'm going off to maple now, yup ^^

-cUi-

nothing should, and nothing will, get me down

2005-10-31T17:55:00.000+11:00

i've come up with a new motto : nothing's gonna get me down. =D i've been upset too many times recently, i'm not going to let any other stupid thing get me down.

Today kinda sucked for me. Started the day off waking up 30 mins late, how brilliant. Rushed like crazy and forgot to bring some stuff to school. Handed in my resume at the stationary shop then the guy kept delaying me, i was late already, so when he was attending to someone else i just went off. Bleh, i don't xi han the job.

Then i had first period history, worst subject to start the day off with. Slept late last night and i kept falling asleep in class. I ran out of water too, cause i forgot to refill it when i was rushing outta the house. I think thats about all to my bad day. Then i had science and maths and commerce. Boring..but not too bad.

Anyway, yesterday i really had a bad night. Had to do work and deal with some stuff. Slept at 3am in the end, and the time kinda freaked me out cause of the movie yesterday [it was foggy too]. Yea, i guess i'm just too paranoid. Really should go study now, i've been slacking off the last few days, not too good...

-cUi-

random 2

2005-10-30T20:55:00.001+11:00

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

mm..something random i did.

hate today

2005-10-30T20:55:00.000+11:00

yes, i hate today. The first half was okay. It was so random, we went city for anny's birthday, me, nat, anny, lindy, ray. Watched exorcism of emily rose, i freaked out. Yes, i freaked out, it was so creepy when the black stuff came out of the dude's eyes. Anyway, it was daylight savings today and nat forgot, so i had to wait for 25 mins. The trains were down today =X bleh.

After the movie we went K, fun, lindy sings good ^^. Then we went to eat and stuff. It was good until i came online. But i won't go into that, no point recording stuff that will make me upset. Watching Aussie idol, 5 people left, nobody i really really like though. I got food tech due tomorrow and i've only done half of it. I can't be bothered to do anymore. =( Today was rainy, we all got soaked in the rain, how nice.

Anyways, the SCs are next monday, that gives me one more week to study. How nice, i haven't even started studying yet. I'm not going to do well this time, probaby pass, but not do really well. =] Oh well, i'm going to finish off my food tech..then try to study hist.

-cUi-

random

2005-10-28T17:41:00.000+10:00

Why do i have to love someone who loves someone else.

How Random am i?

I feel so stupid. Do you?

-cUi-

flies

2005-10-28T16:37:00.000+10:00

Bleh, its coming to summer and there are flies swarming everywhere, literally EVERYWHERE. Anyways, i'm going to change my blogskin soon, when i finish my exams [SC].

Hehs, found out today that i scored second in the year for science, and i thought i screwed it up cause i only got 81. LOL. Borrowed Xue Tian Shi from the comic shop the other day, up to ep 8 now, slow and steady wins the race, lol. It's so sad, even the soundtrack is sad.

Mmm, feeling kinda upset right now, it's meant to be a good day today, happens that a certain someone has an amazing power to ruin my whole day by saying just one thing. Anyways, i guess it really shouldn't matter so much to me. Really should get my act together and study -jia you!!- Hahas, who am i kidding anyway, i'm such a fool as usual.

Not sure if i should go to TMM night today, got invited and emz presenting. Feel obliged to go, but if i go...=X I'll probably end up being alone cause all my friends are presenting. Yes..................Okay. I should really go play my game now so that i can finish it faster and start studying. lol, xian tian hou ku. It's called a different approach, doesn't always work but worth a try.

-cUi-

per sempre [for always]

2005-10-23T23:13:00.000+10:00

wait..lemme say this before i start blogging : Anthony Callea is SO hot~!

okayy. Well anyways, to everyone i got presents for: welcome ^^. To everyone i didn't give presents to : sorry i ran outta money ><.

Listening to Per Sempre now, by Anthony Callea, hes so short and cute. Hahas, pity he didn't win Australian Idol, i would have voted for him like crazy if i was here last year! [Now i'm sounding like a diehard fan].

Watched the Aus Arias today, discovered this guy called Keith Urban, country singer. Hahas, discovered i love country music. Anyways, i'm going to HMV or Sanity tomorrow to buy his album.

It's getting kind of late. I'm going to study tomorrow, like i never studied before. 2 more weeks left till my School Certificate, no more slacking for me. Especially since i didn't do as well in maths and science as i wanted to for my end-year exams. Well, i'm going to make sure i make it up then. So..better have an early night, lol..its not early anymore anyways. goodynite.

-cUi-

bleh

2005-10-21T19:04:00.000+10:00

hehe..my exams r over~ getting results back now..3 more to go. so-so la..i tink prob can do okay. abit disappointed for geo n science n maths thou. buuuut...newaees. i'm falling sick i tink..but i'm prob a lil better than yesterday.

ehhs..yesterday my mom helped me get tings back to ppl. hope u guys got everything ^^
anyways, i applied for a casual job at a pet store today, hope i can get the job, there were so many other applicants =X

i can't wait till my other exams are over, then i can play! so many people are leaving sch next yr -cries- and they're not even coming back to sch after the exam ends..well dat sucks.

anyways, =X i'll blog another day =]

-cUi-

incredibly sucky

2005-10-10T14:47:00.000+10:00

erm..rite. using the sch com..its a mac, abit mo sheng [new] to me. newaes, its computing now..n i HATE computing, more than anything else. it relly sucks..its lyk i have no close frens in computing n i'm alwaes alone - boohoohoo. o well..its gonna end in 25 mins newaes..cheng xia qu!!

had 3 exams today, PDHPE was totally sucky, din even finish it..prob lost 20 marks already. food tech was okayokay..prob wun fail..prob will do well. Commerce was gud..worried my mind off last nite. newaes..i spent hours studying last nite till 2. so incredibly tired. 2 more exams tml..science and english. [paranoid me] - nvm. gonna go spend the rest of my afternoon in the library studying. dono whether i shuld juz go home n study instead. i'm getting bored of the library.

my sis went back to london yesterday. we were stuck in the airport fo lyk 3 hrs coz the qantas luggage belt broke down and the flight was delayed for 1 1/2 hrs. newaes..i hope she had a nice flight. cant wait till the exams are all over, sch cert n everything. den i can finally take my one week off and go to SPCA ^^ den i can get a proper job and earn some money. cant wait to go back to singapore too. time passes so slow..its not funny. -bleh- sometimes i still wonder wad i'm doing here for, it feels so much lyk a dream, a bad dream..mabbe one day i will wake up and realise that nothing really happened n dat i still have my O-lvl n everything.

so...newaes. how was your day? my day was sucky. but i'm glad i'm done wid 3 exams. at least i dont have any homework during examtimes. hee, gud luck to everyone taking O-lvls back home, =D jia you ne! [wo ye hui duoduo jia you de~!]

-cUi-

p.s. sry deres no colour, no idea wassup wid dis ting. mabbe blogger removed the colour button or sumting but i cant see it on dis com -shrugs- i'll go home n try again.

waiting forever?

2005-09-23T22:37:00.000+10:00

today was fun. its the last day of term 3, n start of 2 weeks hols. 3/4 of the class wasn't here today, n i got to stand near 2 veh cute guys. but dats beside the point newae. today me n nat went to buy emz prezzie. walked all ard chinatown n got lost wen we tried to get to darling harbour. my fault relly..i have NO sense of direction. newaes..we sat down at the harbour on the ledge n we took photos. it was fun..n today was warm..not cold.

but today wasn't all dat fun. today i waited for someone. n i waited and waited and waited. just lyk alwaes, i stupidly waited. i guess i'm juz a fool, waiting all the time. i should make waiting my new hobby. i learnt [or relearned] that waiting is almost the worst thing dat one can do to pass time. sometimes it isn't so bad if u noe the person will show up. but somehow i alwaes wait for someone who never shows up. people call me stupid. it hurts, but what can i do newae, i AM stupid. [grrrr to all those who called me stupid]. newaes, waiting is painful..n i strongly don't recommend it to anyone.

[i hate people who thinks its a joke to call people stupid when they are down. These poeple should really get a life. seriously.]

-cUi-

giving up?

2005-09-22T20:56:00.000+10:00

hey dere. trying to rush my computing assignment now, due tml ='(
newaes..holidays are starting here and dats a gud news, den first day back i got exams!! argh..wads wrong wid these exam timetable arrangers!! absolutely nuts.

hahas..i'm looking forward for K on monday. aw..it'll be so fun, only for one hr thou, very boring!! newaes..i've been trying to listen to yes 9.33 over the net but my line keeps dropping n its so annoying! but at least i've managed to dl some songs over the net..so i'm still -kinda- updated.

i'm gonna go do my work now..so yea. cya guys.

-cUi-

-cries loudly and wails-

2005-09-16T17:33:00.000+10:00

so saddening. yesterday was CHS's showcase music night n nat was performing..so i tagged along to support her. n wen i was dere everyone kept asking me why i was there, like i din belong or sumting. it kinda relly made me feel left out. den during PE today, they chose hockey teams and i was lyk the last to be picked. how sucky is dat. i dono, somehow i relly felt left out n upset, den everyone started making fun of my name wich made it even worse. n i got into such a crappy mood.

u noe, sometimes things dat r juz meant to a joke relly hurt people. n it definately duzzen help wen everyone starts laughing at you. i mean..i don wanna be the oversensitive person here, but somehow i juz feel so bleh, like somehow i don fit in coz i don talk much n somehow i'm juz a loner. i dowan to be a loner. u noe it was juz relly bad. coz i'm such a boring person n i bore the hell outta everyone. i'm such a loser..zzz.

feels like i don't belong

-cUi-

sighs..........

2005-09-10T17:50:00.000+10:00

heyhey..got my formal dress finally. got 20% discount..hahas, cost 199.20. but very nice ^^ oso got the 5566 new cd, but i bought pirated de..zhen ban one way too expensive. newaes, i'm way too tired now to do neting. studyin for the last few days, doin so much hist..but not learnin neting ><

its so hot here today, the windows are lyk wide open right now, n i'm wearing sleeveless. newaes, my bros frens r over now..n dey're SO noisy. haiz, owells. u guys have prelims now..n O's soon. so i guess i'm way better off then u guys. =P newaes..juz jia you la hor.

cant wait till i get back home =) i miss u guys SO much..n i miss kbox..n i miss all the food..n i miss bowling..n playin badminton wid u guys. lol [kinda hoping u guys wun get into jc..so dat u'll still be free during jan] heex.

-cUi-

hmmm

2005-09-04T18:19:00.000+10:00

heyheyhey..longlonglong time no blog. todays fathers day in aus. went to blue mountains for the weekend coz my sis is here. hahas..it was quite bad today, the fog in the mountains was SO bad..we culdn't see 3 feet in front of us. n yesterday was okayy..until we went to the hotel n i was gonna take a shower. then there was dis HUGE spider in the bathroom n it scared the hell outta me. i'm so paranoid now, dat a spider wuld suddenly appear in my shower again.

newaes, i watched willy wonka and the chocolate factory last thurs. its relly gud, i wanna watch it again..but emily n nat duzzen lyk jonny depp. neone wanna watch wid me?? hahas..o well. newaes, mite go eat dinner out later. i'm so tired. last nite had to finish my comic bks coz todae it was due. n tml deres sch..n deres work to do. bleh..got so much work to do. i cant wait for the exams to be over thou. then dere will be the formal..n i can go back to singapore. heex..den i can don go sch nemore le.

i'm gonna go do something -fun. lol..blog another time lo.

-cUi-

wad can i sae...?

2005-08-17T22:30:00.000+10:00

hi guys, fallin sick again. argh...cant stand the weather here. newaes..i'm stuffed up wid homework now..n my internet keeps dying every 5 mins. so its relly annoyin. i got the parcel frm boonie ler.. thx for everyone who sent stuff to me. very appreciated =) - esp. the mags - from momo ren. =P u noe who u are..not lyk ure gonna read dis newaes.

hahas..i got my cds from my sis ler. shes here for 2 months -cool- =D we're gonna go shopping tml wich is gud..coz i nid my track pants before friday wen i have PE. bought a tin of sweets today..very yummy sia. lol..today went to eat ice-cream..in winter. the crazy things i do. newaes..i'm gonna try get the presents and letters back to singapore quick..coz boonie nids his charmed dvd. so..mmm..mite be quite busy for the next few days. i gotta go on a 40hr famine in the weekend too. no eating neting for 40hrs..for world vision. gud way to diet too =P

-cUi-

~~~

2005-08-09T15:21:00.000+10:00

hihis..feelin better today, got so much work..but too lazy to do. sighs. my sis is coming to aus this sat, cant wait!! hahas..i got a 40 hr famine this weekend thou, so they better not eat anything good on that day[s]. for charity mahx..for worldvision.

anyways, i'm so bored roght now, but i don wanna study for my computing test tml. i'll prob mug for it later on n end up sleeping real late again. i think i'm strating to get a cold thou..keep having impulses to sneeze. hahas..maybe ppl are talking abt me behind my back =X

cant wait to go back in dec..first thing i wanna do is eat!! eat char kway tiao, satay, laksa, meepok, prawn mee, etc. hahahas..i'll have a big feast when i go back.

-cUi-

bleh

2005-08-04T15:48:00.000+10:00

i'm having such a bad day!! other than my eng results the rest is sucky. had a bad day at badminton..i'm getting worse instead of improving. feel so lousy. then i argued wtih my bro, feel lyk such a loser. bleh. unbelievable..life is gettin worse by the minute.

grumble.mumble.dumble.fumble.bumble.grrr...

-cUi-

just a little fun

2005-07-26T17:17:00.001+10:00

Lemon =))
Lemons comes from the citrus trees, Citrus Limon, of the family Rutaceae. The orange family.Often called Lemon Trees. =)
Perhaps you think all lemons look the same? They don't. The best lemons are heavy for their size, and they have a nice textured skin.The lemons that has a more deep yellow color, are more mature than those which are lighter.
Be aware when you shop lemons next time!
A test shows that the avarage household in Singapore gets through ten lemons a year. What year that was from, can be the same. I doubt it has changed dramatically.Drinks industry are one of the biggest commercial users of lemons.But not Lemonade, because they usually don't have a drop of lemon juice in it. =)
New Lemonade! 100% fresh lemons.

See what I mean?
Now that's just plain stupid.
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But u can make lemonade yourself! With nice fresh lemons from NTUC. Be sure to add sugar if you don't want to crack people up with a really stupid soured face. =)

Lemons are safe to eat, unless you're allergic,or too young to eat without adult supervision. It can cause suffocation.Be careful at all times.

Do not, however, try to eat painted lemons. It ain't good. Trust me.
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I love lemons..and limes, but lemons are good. =D..Hope you enjoyed your lemon =)

courtesy of nas~ =P

philosophical time

2005-07-25T19:03:00.000+10:00

Doing my geography a moment ago and changing my msn nickname, then while taking a quick browse through my contacts, i suddenly realised how different teenagers compare to other people. Its really quite amazing, how all we have in our minds are our love lifes and relationships. I don't really want to make generalisations though, i mean, teenagers fall into many other categories as well, like people who think about their future, people who think about their families, etc. There is so many renditions of the term teenager or, if you would rather, a teenager's mind.

I've decided to take a quick moment every night, starting from last night, to make a prayer to god. I'm not religious really [free thinker], but to me its a reflection of the things i have done and the things in my life. Last night's prayer was about my family, and i realised that i'm probably one of the luckiest people ever. Like any other family, my family has it's ups and downs as well, but i realised that i actually love my family more than anything else in this world. I'm not going to go through some self-realisation period here, but i just want to suggest the idea to teenagers out there that not everything is about boys/girls.

I'm sure the large majority of teenagers now trouble over love, even i do too. But anyway, to cut the crap, i'm really not too sure what i'm talking about now. Hahas, muddled myself up already, okay, enough of today's philosophical cum reflection cum psychological time. =X

-cUi-

argh!!!

2005-07-20T19:57:00.000+10:00

yeouch, i freakin squashed my finger. went to the gym coz i'm tryin to lose weight now, den wen i was pullin weights the thing kinda got stuck, so i had to try to get it down and the weights came squashin down on my right-hand index finger n thumb. it came down on my nails, 15 kg. n now deres lyk a blood clot dere. it hurts lyk hell, it was lyk still hurtin after an hr after the accident, as in not doin neting to my hand n it still hurts. i got badminton tml..if my finger n thumb duzzen stop hurting by then...arghs!!!

newaes, sch started for 2 days le. sighs..deres still 48 days of sch left until the term ends. seems lyk very little days, but i noe its gonna take foreva, 10 weeks. i'm very loaded wid homework now, 2 geog assessments, tests, zZz.

i'm kinda sick of life here now. its so different as compared to life in singapore. i tink i very chi dun, very slow, onli now den feel the effect of moving away, only after 3 months +++ den feel homesick. life here is gud, not so much stress, but i juz don lyk the lifestyle here, its SO boring. theres nothin to do after sch nemore, ppl here don hang out after sch, dey don walk ard the malls aimlessly juz for fun. the only time i don go home after sch is wen i have to buy sumting for sch or sumting. ppl back home r alot more friendlier i think. at least we all speak in the same way, regardless of race, religion, etc. but everytime i speak here i have to clear my throat, becoz i'm alwaes afraid that ppl wun understand wad i'm sayin. haix. o well, i guess xi guan jiu hao, i juz gotta get used to it.

-cUi-

zzz

2005-07-15T23:14:00.000+10:00

hihis, blogger finally got the picture ting up, so now i can publish my pics here instead of on my msn space. got a little problem though, i ran outta pics to publish. haven quite been out with the camera lately, and the latest pics i got is of hunter vallley and port stephen. but newaes, i'll juz put some random pic on for the fun of it. okies, got a pic of a koala wid me n my bro. its a little blurry coz the cam wasn't workin properly wen we took the shot. but its a gud pic, at least i look okay, n the koala is SO cute. btw, my bro is 4 yrs younger than me [he does not look lyk my bf, namchew!!]

All of a sudden i'm hooked into reliving all the stuff in my past. listening to old jay chou songs dat i juz simply cannot get enough of. spending 2 days to download an online game i used to play, even spending 8.50 on a lousy bowl of prawn mee. i miss prawn mee..i still remember once wen me n sarah went to bugis to fix the microphone and ended up having fabulous prawn mee. i guess i relly missed home. what shocked me was wad i said to my bro the other day "i hate this place, i wanna go home" wad shocked me even more was dat my bro went "good on ya, mate". my gawd, even my bro is speaking lyk an aussie already. i wish dis was all a nightmare. coz i relly miss home rite now, its lyk spendin 8.50 on a bowl of prawn mee dat doesn't taste gud n dat i don half-finish is worth it, coz the idea of eating sumting dat was made by ppl from singapore juz makes me feel at home.

so newaes, enough of dat. i'm still kinda sick, got dis annoyin dry cough dat duzzen wanna go away. i'm almost done wid the shoppin now..buyin stuff for ppl back home. its relly hard to buy stuff for so many ppl at one time relly. but newaes, i'm goin shoppin tml at some big shoppin area, so hopefully i'll finish my shoppin dere. gonna eat pancakes on sunday at dis famous place. its relly gud..hahas. =P my sis is gonna come mid-aug, cant wait for her to come, shes bringin cds from singapore =D

-cUi-

hrm..

2005-07-09T14:40:00.000+10:00

heyho. i'm tired of tryin to make my music work. hahas, o well. yesterday i had fun! i went out shoppin, alone. some me time is gud. newaes, i bought some stuff for frens back home. but i ran outta money after buyin stuff for 3 ppl. den i went to the library, wanted to do work at first, but i din bring my work so i wrote letters. wrote 2..den made my way back home n ate fish n chips [big wrong idea].

ends up todae i woke up wid a sore throat [or sumting dat will be a sore throat]. but newaes, i took a lozenge juz now..it tasted seriously weird. but newaes, i found a relly gud site to dl music from..i noe i shuldn't dl music, but its hard to find the songs i want on cd here..n if i do it costs a bomb. my parents r thinkin of buyin a one-way ticket back to singapore. hahas, not in dat sense of coz, its juz coz its cheaper to buy a ticket back to sydney from singapore. but newaes, my mom is considerin goin back in dec instead of jan. but i tink we can only stay for 2 weeks..coz dats wen her leave ends.

but newaes, my hols so far has been rather unproductive. other than finishin off my maths homework and writin letters back home, i haven studied neting yet. i shuld relly..but i'm too lazy to. newaes, i ended up slpin at abt 2 yesterday n wakin up at 1 today. i culdn't put down one of Zhang Xiao Xian books again. weneva i read her love novels i can never stop. so addicted to it, coz somehow i can link her characters to myself. i love her books..its the best =D

i cant wait to get back to singapore. i wanna go kbox..my voice has detiororated ever since i left. deres so many tings i wanna do wen i go back. kbox, bowling, shoppin, eating. hahas. i miss singapore food, char kway tiao, satay, nasi lemak, roti prata, laksa, prawn mee, meepok, etc. hahas. o well, i'll eat my fill wen i go back lo.

-cUi-

here we go again..

2005-07-07T16:42:00.000+10:00

hey dere, abt my background music..its givin me a headache..grr. i feel so dumb..not bein able to fix up an easy background music. newaes, i found a smaller file, but its in wma format so those without a windows media player wun be able to hear it. but sry lor..no choice. tell me if it works k, if it still duzzen i'll change to another file. zZz..bear wid me for awhile as i try to fix dis ting up.

-cUi-

harlows..

2005-07-04T17:51:00.000+10:00

i'm in a way better mood todae. at least much better from the last post. juz dat i'm kinda suffering from lack of slp rite now..coz last nite my dad moved to my room to slp coz of my bro, n he snores. yea..u get the idea.

so newae..juz got back from the gym..n i'm eatin ice-cream =X but newaes, it amazes me how much i can eat here. in addition, i actually haven put on any weight at all. hahas..but i'm gonna try slim down now.

i changed my background music, tag me to tell me if it works anot k. i've a feelin dat the file is a little too big..so u gotta wait for awhile before it comes on. its yi lu xiang bei by jay chou, in the initial D movie. yea, i watched initial D!!!!!! hahas..its gud. jay is SO cute, his character is so cute!! 'dada' the gan jue. lyk veri blur liddat. so kawaii..-dreamy look- hahas, my hols start le, 2 weeks hol..not too bad. i can finally go shoppin for stuff and get down to writin letters back home. [btw, happi bdae to gina!! -5th july] hahas, sometimes..it rellly makes me wonder how many ppl actually read my blog. it prob only reaches 4 people. my bestest frenny duzzen even read it. gawd noes wad shes so busy wid. o well...hahas.

-cUi-

lyrics~

2005-06-19T15:01:00.000+10:00

Shun Shi Zhen ---- Gigi Leung [Liang Yong Qi]

ling guo yu de kong qi
pi juan le de shang xin
jing jing shou qi de shan di
lei de shang hen jian jian tui qu

wo yi ge ren gu qi yong qi
gen zhe shi zhong yi ge yi ge de qian jin
tui kai chuang deng dao yang guang
deng dai zhe qing xi

wo ji yi li de tong hua
yi jing man man de rong hua
ai bu shi zhe yang
er ni
tou zou wo de shi jian
ceng shuo guo de shi yan
ni hai zai hu ma
wo bu xiang
gu dan de zuo zai hui yi li cheng qiang
shi jian hui bu dao zui kai shi de di fang
zhi xiang zhe yang chui zhe feng
man man shun shi zhen yi wang

wo yi ge ren ke yi
xiang qi ai guo zhi qian de zi ji
huo xu zhe yang de tian zhen
wo yi jing hui bu qu
ye xu wo dong le ji mo
bu xiang ai rong yi

wo hui yi li de tong hua
yi jing man man de rong hua
ai bu shi zhe yang
er ni
tou zou wo de shi jian
ceng shuo guo de shi yan
ni hai zai hu ma
wo bu xiang gu dan de zuo zai hui yi li cheng qiang
shi jian hui bu dao zui kai shi de di fang
zhi xiang zhe yang chui zhe feng
man man shun shi zhen yi wang

yi jing man man de rong hua
ai bu shi zhe yang
er ni
tou zou wo de shi jian
ceng shuo guo de shi yan
ni hai zai hu ma
wo bu xiang gu dan de zuo zai hui yi cheng qiang
shi jian hui bu dao zui kai shi de di fang
zhi xiang zhe yang chui zhe feng
man man shun shi zhen yi wang

deng dao ming tian ju xu fang qing
ji hu wang ji xia guo le yu
ai zai xin li liu de qian ming
zhong hui man man tui qu

dis song rawks, its so nice~ i'm gonna try to upload it as a background music.

-cUi-

siCK..aGain

2005-06-14T20:21:00.000+10:00

hahas, o well, sick again. i'm givin up the perfect english ting. i'm not cut up to it after all..hahas. my english is NOT gud enuf~ hahahahas. sounds so funni wen i sae it *hints* well..its only coz i got full marks for my eng essay for half-yearly exams. =P cool..now i feel smart again. but newaes..i tink the marker was too lenient.

well..i've finally fallen sick, after everyone else got better. bleh..i'm so slow. makes me feel retarded sometimes, not only slow physically but mentally too. hahas. o well. newaes, todae we passed up yr 11 subject selection forms. i'm takin eng n maths [both wid extensions] and physics, bio, chem and business studies. hahas. i'm SO confining myself to the science industry. o well..i wanna be a vet newaes. sometimes i relly wonder if i relly wanna be a vet. i'm scared i cant get into the university, den i'm scared i cant take the operatin on animals part, den i'm scared i cant find a job in the future. hahas, i'm so paranoid.

i'm tryin to put pics into my blog..hahas..i'm so slow..i only realised i din have pics in my blog now. o well, i shall put lots ans lots of pics in my blog now. especially pics of my -recent- holiday to port stephen..hahas. it was fun, culd have been better if i din fall sick. we went to the sand dunes and stuff liddat, whale watchin. hahas, juz dat i was drowsy half the time cause the stoopid med made me drowsy.

newaes, i'm dying to get my hands on the somewhat new cds dat came out. ou de yang, energy, gigi leung, huang yida~ argh!!!!! i wanna order it online..but my dad tinks its too ex =X o well. guess i'll juz have to wait till i go back to singapore. hahas..i mite be able to go back dis dec, mite..if my mom and dad r nice enuf~ wich i'm sure dey r =) okay, hold on..i give up on the pic tingy. so stoopid, i'll juz upload it on my msn space. go dere if ure interested..hahas. i tink i pasted the link in an earlier post, so muz visit okays. btw, my tagboard doesn't relly seem to be workin, tell me if its workin for u okay. i tink it mite be the encoding tingy, but den again..don tink so. -shrugs- weird, dumb tagboard, gotta get a new one.

-cUi-

-bleh-boo-bubb-bah-baa-

2005-06-01T21:35:00.000+10:00

i don't know french =( . Now i know what it feels like to be in a conversation when i don't understand people. I shall type in proper english now, no more short forms or singlish for me. Argh! Too many msn windows popping up.

So, anyways, my exams are pretty much over, except for food tech [which is like next week =X]. Got my commerce back, 38/5o, not too bad huh, considering how i hardly even studied. Got my english narrative back too [just assignment], got a 19/2o. Hes just so lenient, he actually gives 2o/2o, not like Mr Osgodby, so harsh =X. Crap, i forgot what i was going to say.

Read some stuff online today that triggered back some unhappy memories, kind of made me wonder 'bout the past and stuff like that.

Sometimes i feel like everything in my life is just so fake, and that i regret every single move i make.
Sometimes i feel like life is so pointless, and that i am but nothing in this universe.
Sometimes i feel like love is more of a torture than an enjoyment. Sometimes my mind's just a blank and nothing more than a blank.

Life really bores me now, everyday sitting at home or school and doing nothing. My birthday's this Sunday though, hoping that i could do something fun. My friends here are throwing me a party though, watching starwars [finally]. We're going karaoke after the movie, so excited, can't wait till we're there, hope emz can sing =X.

Bleh, this perfect english thing is driving me crazy.

-cUi-

heex~~!!!

2005-05-25T22:51:00.000+10:00

hahas, i'm relly happy today. Got my geog results back, just the MCQ and short answer questions, but i got 13/20 and i'm relly happi for myself =D
the highest is 16 by the way, and considering the fact that i'm new its relly wuite an achievement. hahas, but its only a part of the paper thou, i noe i screwed up the first part of section B with a crap communities answer. well, i'm hoping i'll get a 60% or sumting liddat, hopefully -crosses fingers-

but todays computing totally sucked. i screwed the exam up, totally. it was so hard! i din have time to finish it at all! and for more than half the questions i was clueless. o well, i guess dats wad u get for trying to learn everything in a few hours. but history was relly surprising thou, i culd actually do it -hahas-. ohh..thanx to emily thou, she sat down wid me during recess, for 10-15 mins n fed me wid info. hahas, lucky for me wad she said came up and i knew how to do it~~ aw..i lub u emily!!! u rawk!!!! [hahas, ure prob not gonna read dis newae]

well..now i got 2 more exams to go, at least i got thru the bulk of it already, 6 exams. hahas, still got maths n food tech. maths is easy thou, quadratic equations n curves[parabolas].hahas.i bet all of u guys back home r screaming ur head off coz u guys got differentiation n stuff lyk dat for ur Os. well, i guess i'm kinda glad that i'm here n not there. -shrugs-

hahas, no exams tml, but i gotta rush my hist n geog homework =P so yea..blog another time. ohh..n ignore the last post, i was juz bein stoopid and over-sensitive. hehs.

-cUi-

`tired, c0ld n miserable`

2005-05-19T22:05:00.000+10:00

i'm sad...hahas. juz feelin reellly miserable rite now, dont even know why though. argh! i'm so pathetic. i wanna cry but i cant bring myself to. sighs~

deres exams next week and i have practically no idea wad i'm tested on -great- dis seriously sucks. i dowan to flunk my exams, but to tell u the truth i know i will. aw man..i think i'm far too pessimistic, but i just cant help it. [i'm not pms-ing or nething either]. bleh..i just feel so lousy. mabbe i juz miss home or sumting. although we're only 6000km [or sumting liddat] apart, it feels as if we're millions of kilometres apart. its tough to be new i guess, sometimes i just feel so left out. bleh, wad i'm i doin? complaining..? gawd..i shuld be counting my blessings. i'm lucky enough to have frens even.

stupid sinking feeling in my heart. cant make it go away. feel so empty. aw..i'm gonna start crying. juz ignore me..i'm bein stupid and sensitive again. i'll juz go and..yea. its funny how i can comfort others but i cant even comfort myself. sighs..i suck..i'll juz go to slp n everything will be fine the next day. -bad dream.bad dream- dis is but a bad dream.

-cUi-

. . .

2005-05-05T21:56:00.000+10:00

eek, i'm goin nuts trying to study geog rite now. i started sch yesterdae, 4th may, it suked yesterdae coz of volleyball [no offence meant, it suked coz i suked at it]. but today wasn't so bad, made more friends =) n i played abt 40 mins of bball for sports, hahas, spent the other 40 mins slacking -sports is lyk 1hr 20mins-.

suprisingly, theres alot of asians here, so there are 2 girls who are in my yr [who i noe] dat came to sch der same day as mie =), dey're frm beijing i tink, yeh..nice ppl. gawd..juz watched BoA's KISS - because i'm a girl n its SO sad! dat stoopid yuntong, ask me watch it, i cried -cried!- its abt a gurl hairdresser and a guy photographer who fall in love wid one another. not ur sappy love story, the girl loses her sight in a freak accident and the guy donates his corneas to her and disappears frm her life. den one day she saw him and it was SO sad!

gawd..not gud..i forgot to watch over my mom's soup coz i was watchin the mv. now its lyk burnt, zZz, guess i'm having burnt soup tml. oh well, the amazing race finalli started here [the one wid rob & amber], now i'll juz hafta watch thru half of der series before i get to where i stop. der suspense is killin mie, but i juz dowan to find out who got eliminated online. sighs, i guess i'm off to studyin my geog now..ciaoz-

-cUi-

n0 skoOl =PpPpP

2005-04-26T14:31:00.000+10:00

Well, todae i went to my new sch and saw the administrator. he said it wuld prob take about 2 weeks for my application form to be processed, so hahahahas, i have no sch for 2 more weeks! bad huh..i'll be bored to death >< . but newae, deres no lit here! -cries- and i have to take geog...gawd, australian geog...

hahas, newae, juz wondering whether i shuld take french/german as an elective or not. actually i was supposed to take commerce (c), but der administrator said dat dere were onli 1 gurl who took dat last yr, so not such a great idea. well, i can take dance or music, or french, or german, or food tech..lol, so mani subs to choose from. the thing is i dono whether to take technology multimedia or a french/german. my dad saes tech multimedia is lyk a project work tingy, so dere isn't relly a lesson for that, more free and easy, but it isn't easy to score, just easy to pass. and french/german, is totally new to me, but i just tink its relly cool to learn a new lang..hahas.

well, exams r comin for u guys back in sg [hahas =P], so must jia you okay! now don haf me dere to pull up msg, so must work harder wor!! heex, good luck newae, i'm sure u guys can do it! ohh, n one more thing, if u wanna check out some photos, go to http://spaces.msn.com/members/stillremember/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c11_PhotoAlbum_spaHandler=TWljcm9zb2Z0LlNwYWNlcy5XZWIuUGFydHMuUGhvdG9BbGJ1bS5GdWxsTW9kZUNvbnRyb2xsZXI%24&_c11_PhotoAlbum_spaFolderID=cns!1pWkYc3sv_LDDzV6gsFkjIkQ!259&_c=PhotoAlbum&owner=1&js=yes
its my space in msn, i noe der add is xtra long...o.O its wae easier to upload pics here newae. hahas. =)

-cUi-

-cries-

2005-04-22T23:27:00.000+10:00

wahhhhh~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don belief wad just happened!!!!!! my bro overwrote my kingdom hearts game~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -cries n wails l o u d l y -
GAWD! i spent hrs on it! -sighs-

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zZz, nvm..dis is sucky.

gawd~~

2005-04-21T10:05:00.000+10:00

hihis!

its beri beri cold todae..zZz. its been rainin for the last 2 days [not continuously thou], n now the temp is lyk 15 degrees. well, yesterdae i had my first blood test. ouch. it was a medical examination for my PR..der nurse took my left arm first..den cannot find any blood, so she took my right arm. then after a few mins of poking around with the needle she finally found my bld vessel. OUCH! gawd, i wish i neva have to do it again...

so newae, i got my new hp no. le, +61401888855. remember the +61 if u wanna sms or call or neting. but its gonna be ex for u k..warn u guys first, hahas. oh, n if u wan my add or neting juz ask me on msn kays. n one more ting..heres my photoalbum : http://wishstar.multiply.com/photos. i haven updated all the photos yet, coz it takes mi approx. 5 mins to upload one, zZz. so newae, i'll try to upload dem asap okies.

-cUi-

gReetinGs frOm syDney!!!

2005-04-15T23:42:00.000+10:00

heys!!! i'm in sydney now, its 11.43 pm [9.43 pm sg time]. hahas, its autumn, so now is daylight savings time so its +2 hrs instead of +3. veri cold oso, 20 degrees now, i veri scared of cold, so i'm all wrapped up in my blanket now.

the flight took abt 7 hrs, so now veri tired..zZz. i took SIA so got very good inflight entertainment. watched spongebob-squarepants the movie. hahas. the food was excellent too! chicken with rosemary, mashed potato & roasted vegetables. ^^

finished packin awhile ago, my bro n mi got the master bedroom so its quite big n has a bathroom attached to it. hahas. my bro playin his gameboy advance sp now. he so lucky, his frens went ard sch asking teachers and students for money to buy der gameboy for him. he looks so addicted. hahas. oh..n thanx for gettin mi dat $100 cash voucher for my watch guys-! veri nice~

tryin to download maple at the moment, its erm..14% only, about 2 n a half more hrs to go. aw man, i'm gonna fall aslp le. well, my apartment is on the 16th floor and we got dis huge balcony [bigger than the kitchen, serious]. but its really cold n quiet at nite, its gettin abit creepy, dono whether i can fall aslp tonite. but den again, i'm relly tired already. argh! i wish der download would just hurry up! erm..okay lar. i tink i'll go find sumting to do to kip myself awake..cyas.

-cUi-

- like / love -

2005-04-03T11:13:00.000+10:00

Difference between the one you like and the one you love.

In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster. But in front of the person you love, you get happy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring. But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush. But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.
In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind. But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy. But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like. But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.
When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear. But the feeling of love starts from the eye. So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears. But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever.

mi again:.

2005-04-02T22:14:00.000+10:00

heyaZ:.

sry for not bloggin for soooo long. veri busy larx recently, wif all der heaps of homework n 'stuff'. o well. movin away in abt 13 days le, so sad huh. zzz. i goin runnin later, fitness test nxt wed, i wan get A. hahas, last timed my 2.4 was 15 mins ++, but A is lyk 14 mins. so..jia you lor. hahas. i movin awae liao but still nid to do fitness test n oral. so toot. mr osgodby wun let mi skip eng oral, even thou i get to skip chi oral.

nxt sat i wan throw farewell party, neone wanna come contact mi okay-? oh yea. btw, sry lim wwei, rowena, bernadette n meichen for not updatin my other blog. ='( din rilly expect u guys to buy neting for mi. heex. sorry worx. u guys don bother makin it up to mi la..my fault for not updatin..hahas.

o well, i go run le. u guys muz jia you for o-lvl hor!! [kekex]

-cUi-

-+smilex+-

2005-02-27T22:54:00.000+11:00

heyaZ:.

i'm bored. zzz. juz came back frm my grandparents hse, todae my grandma'a bdae, got cake~! hahas. eatin durian now, i tink i eat too much. but i suay, not lyk other thin ppl, i eat le will grow fat one -sniffs-. i wanna go bowlin!! i improve alot le, ever since i first started bowlin, now my average got 80-90 le and my highest is 113. i noe not alot la, but its an accomplishment for sumone lyk mi.

heex, i feel so proud of myself. my dad gt a zen micro, but he bought it at the airport n brought it over to sydney. hahas, he'll gif it to mi wen he gets back frm sydney in april. i still got loads of homework haven do yet. feel so slack, yesterdae neva do any homework at all, den todae morn still go watch movie. watched howl's movin castle, d story abit hard to understand, but d animation is thumbs-up man.

=P i beta go do homework le, i dowan to be k i l l e d by osgodby, oh n hak soon oso. rite in another time bahx. see wen i got time..so busy. busy busy busy.

-cUi-

sniffs-

2005-02-19T10:45:00.000+11:00

heyaZ:.

guess wad..arghs, my hamster died on thurs. so sad man, i was cryin n cryin. den i had no mood to study for bio n amaths test at all. life is sucky man. so newae, i got my emaths test back ytd n i did rilly badly~! gt 29 out of 40 n its full of careless mistakes! sighs..

nothin seems to be goin well nemore. d onli good ting is dat i get to go bowlin l8. hahas. ytd culd onli bowl 3 rounds, den had to go melvin's house eat steamboat. zzz. i swear i was forced to go. it was so awkward lor. well d food was okay thou, edible.

i go off plae ms le. my mom is snoopin ard. zzz. okay, blog another time.

-cUi-

zZzzZz...

2005-02-03T22:14:00.000+11:00

heyaZ:.

i gonna move to dis bloggy le, frm old de [foolishgurl.blogdrive]. soon le, wait i finish all d odds n ends can le.

next week chi new yr le, gt money den can buy my stuff le~!! heh so happi. todae gt tution, gave some excuse n left earli =) but still veri xian lei. hais. i oso dono wad to sae, lols. mabbe i'll bring in all my entrys frm d other blog. den at least dere'll be more. laters den~

-cUi-

ellox...

2005-02-02T16:16:00.000+11:00

heyaZ:.

jus wanna try my new template out [okay, theoretically it isn't mine coz i'm too noob to make one]. newae, juz testin~

-cUi-